20240720 DOWN DAY

 Well, what can I say?

I'm depressed.  I guess.

Write your troubles down, and it might help.  Here goes:

Larry & Paul want to come stay; I have so little room, but he's been such a welcoming host in SLC over the last several years..... I should try to host him.

Joe & Chrissy have separated; I still have no way to accept it; it seems so very wrong.

Lisa is distant, as she has been for quite some time, although last conversation revealed that she's getting along with Lyla MUCH better now.

George is SMOKING!  I still can't believe that!  And there's little hope we could ever live together.

David has no or very little time for me in his life.  Yes, he loves me genuinely, but he just never acts on our friendship - or very rarely.  I feel like I'd like to talk to him, but that I'd be intruding if I even call.

AND, Acanda is going nowhere, it seems.  So...... I'm going back to work for Dr. Pruitt.

Piano - haven't taken it back up yet, post-trip.  Maybe it would help.

20240716 POST-TRIP POST, INCLUDING TO DOs

 After catching up on sleep, I'm moving back to functioning as usual.  Sorta.

Now I'm trying to get the basics back into place so I can move forward on:

People:

Joe - talking, family

Chrissy - visit

Lisa - next visit

Teresa - move; knee

George - send stuff

David - updates

Larry - possible visit

Dan - say hi to Liz

Bob - Scott & Nancy

Tom - card to Patricia

Jack - nada

Kath - Glen's health; Katey's son

Peggy - updates

Millie - Nathan back home

Mary Huber - update

Paul & John - party

Sikoki & Richard - party

Aritas - rent updates

Clarence - schedule massage

Things:

Finances/budget

Piano

Routine

20240711 POST BD POST

Today's fucked.

Really.

Not even a text from DT re birthday OR ACANDA.

Biden looks Dead.

GG is ailing/sleeping day and night.

It's hot.  Miserably hot outside.

Lisa and Joe both have not really stayed in touch; made feeble attempts to greet me on my birthday.

Teresa sent an electronic greeting to "Virginia" when I think she meant "Ken."  And that was actually intended for Ginny.

I'm out of shape; not sure where I stand physically; definitely bothered, likely depressed with my life.

Not sure what I'll do when I get home:  Dr. Pruitt?  or sell the house?

Feeling dismal & bleak right now. 

20240710 BIRTHDAY POST

 After planning & taking a month-long trip to Europe, I am here in Cyprus (Mammari) with George (GG), and I'm not sure how things are actually going.

That's partly because it's so damn hot here.  GG and I don't really feel like going out unless we have to.

It's been nice to be here with GG, and he and I are still quite in love; I'm surprised about how he's begun smoking, though.  He has yet to explain how he can justify that.  I've noted that many people here smoke, even in the heat of the day.  To me, it just doesn't make sense.

But today's my birthday - 74 - and George has been a delight.  He lit a candle, sang "Happy Birthday" and gave me coffee & 2 pieces of BD cake in bed!  Because we extended ourselves YESTERDAY, today is a "down" (physically) day for George.  So I'm happily corresponding to family & friends, and munching on some potato chips & drinking some ice-cold fruit & soda drinks.

The world is in upset politically, and is still coping with outbreaks of war in Ukraine and Israel.... and we have an old President running for re-election against a despicable felon.  Where will all this take us over the next 4-5 months??

*sigh*