20220530 SLLLAVERS FOR MONDAY, MEMORIAL DAY - NO D-DAY YET. PFFFFFFTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!! BUT.... I ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!!

SILENCE

Tried to silence my brain for 70 seconds; no real success.

LLL - HBL

Live.  Laugh.  Love.

Heal. Bless.  Love.

AFFIRMATIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
6. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
7. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
8. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
9. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
10. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

1. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
2. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
3. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
4. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
5. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
6. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
7. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
8. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
9. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
10. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

V

198.6  Yesterday's weight

196.4  Today's weight

-2.2

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

Reasons I'm AGAIN motivated are

1. I already have everything I need.
2. The death of Michael Harrington tells me my health is paramount for working with David - SOON!
3. I feel better overall when I'm doing my exercises regularly

So, if I lose approx 0.5 pounds every day, I should be down to approx. 

194 by June 3rd.

Here's how I've done during the last 24 hours:

1. Diet:  I had XXXXX meals yesterday: 1) my smoothie & coffee around 10-11am; and 2) frozen dinner + 2 slice buttered & jam toast + chips + X fig newton (covered with peanut butter & or jam) + pickle & cheese sandwich for dinner at around ALL DAY pm  UGHHH
2. I did not eat anything between these meals (approx 10-12 hours fasting)
3. I exercised (full routine - see below)
4. It's May 30th, and I weigh (199.0 (on 0328) - 2.6) 196.4

EXERCISE

Did my full base-72 routine for Monday, May 30, 2022:

1. ankle/wrist circles 72
2. toe/finger stretches 72
3. bicycle crunches 72
4. shoulder rolls 72
5. inversion table 1 2-min set
6. EPLEY MANEUVER 1Ram (silght dizziness before doing this)
7. ball/wall 15
8. angel/wall 15
9. counter stretches 15
10. flamingo R30, L30
11. squats 36
12. push-ups 36

READING, WRITING

Read for 1 page in SAPIENS by Yuval Noah Harari.  He says that science played a major role in WWI, and an even larger role in WWII:  The Manhattan Project (atomic bomb development, assisted in part by my uncle Ivan Taylor), and today, drones and brain evaluations will lead to stopping terrorism.

Read for 1 page in A PROMISED LAND by Barack Obama.  He recalls how his & his family's lives changed during the time he won the election & before he moved to the WH:  with all the security needed to protect him, his neighborhood became a "private ghost town."  And then he had to set about forming his government.

He gives the stats of who he had to help him, as follows:

*  3,000,000 + people employed by the Federal Government (civilian and military)

*  2-3,000 people are political appointees, serving "at the pleasure of the President"

*  <100 people are senior officials and aides

*  "handful" of people were in regular contact, served as his eyes, ears, hands & feet (managers, executors, facilitators, analysts, organizers, team leaders, amplifiers, conciliators, problem solvers, flack catchers, honest brokers, sounding boards, constructive critics, loyal soldiers)

With these poeple in place, President Obama would then be prepared to:

*  articulate a vision for the country

*  set a direction for the country

*  promote a healthy organizational culture

*  establish clear lines of responsibility

*  establish measures of accountability

The key position - and the most vital to be filled by the right person - was his CHIEF OF STAFF

Read for 1 page in WORKING WITH ONENESS by Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee.  He says that magic is the key to the real excitement of living.  We have in general traded our magic for science; rather, we should allow magic to flow in our lives such that the real power & meaning of living is evident.  He says the magic is of God, and we have the opportunity at any time to partake of the magic.

MY NOTE:  I thought as I read this passage that the "magic" is similar to what I used to think of as "the Priesthood of God," an actual spiritual substance that might flow through me.  Perhaps Joseph Smith partook of some of that "magic of God" and called it the priesthood.

Read for 1 page in THE RIGHTEOUS MIND by Jonathan Haidt.  He says psychologists evolved their thinking about behavior & morality into 2 kinds of actions people take:

1)  "seeing-that" is when a person automatically patterns his/her behavior (e.g., sees sugary food, stops and eats it)

2)  "reasoning-why"  (aka "intuitive thinking) is when a person contemplates why s/he is taking a particular action, and explains it to him/her self, or someone else.

Read for 1 page in MAN'S SEARCH FOR MEANING by Viktor Frankl.  He explores the psychology of being an Auschwitz prisoner.  The men contemplated suicide, but he did not, at least, not for long.  The desire to live was stronger.  He quotes Dostoyevski:  "a man can get used to anything."  He and his fellow prisoners add, "but don't ask us how."

Listened for 20 minutes in ULYSSES by James Joyce.👌

 

20220516 SLLLAVERS FOR MONDAY - I ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (but still, PPPPFFFFFFFTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

SILENCE

Tried to silence brain; half-hearted attempt.  Hmmm...... maybe I should also try silencing my heart & stomach... and other "memory" cells in my body.

LLL - HBL

Live.  Laugh.  Love.

Heal.  Bless.  Love.

AFFIRMATIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
6. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
7. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
8. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
9. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
10. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds

1. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
2. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
3. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
4. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
5. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
6. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
7. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
8. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
9. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
10. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

VISUALIZATION

EXERCISE

 

20220514 SLLLAVERS FOR SATURDAY - I ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (D-DAY? PFFFFFTTT!!!)

SILENCE

Tried to silence my brain for 70 seconds; no real success.

LLL - BHL

Live.  Laugh.  Love.

Bless.  Heal.  Love.

AFFIRMATIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
6. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
7. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
8. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
9. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
10. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

1. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
2. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
3. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
4. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
5. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
6. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
7. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
8. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
9. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
10. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

VISUALIZATION

194.8  Today's weight

I visualize weighing less tomorrow

Reasons I'm AGAIN motivated are

1. I already have everything I need.
2. George tells me that if a person can stand on one foot for X seconds/minutes, then s/he will likely live longer.
3. I feel better overall when I'm doing my exercises regularly

So, if I lose approx 0.5 pounds every day, I should be down to approx. 

190 by May 24th.

Here's how I've done during the last 24 hours:

1. Diet:  I had XXXXX meals yesterday: 1) my smoothie & coffee around 10-11am; and 2) frozen dinner + 2 slice buttered & jam toast + chips + X fig newton (covered with peanut butter & or jam) + pickle & cheese sandwich for dinner at around ALL DAY pm  UGHHH
2. I did not eat anything between these meals (approx 10-12 hours fasting)
3. I exercised (full routine - see below)
4. It's May 11th, and I weigh (199.0 - 4.2) 194.8

EXERCISE

1. ankle/wrist circles 72
2. toe/finger stretrches 72
3. bicycle crunches 72
4. shoulder rolls 72
5. inversion table 1 2-min set
6. EPLEY MANEUVER 1Ram
7. ball/wall 15
8. angel/wall 15
9. counter crunches 15
10. flamingo r30, l30
11. squats 36
12. push-ups 36

READING, WRITING

Read for 70 seconds in SAPIENS by Yuval Noah Harari.  He says SCIENCE has become the 3rd "partner" in Eisenhower's pronounced "military-industrial complex."  Today, scientists are heavily involved in weapons development, as well as standard of living enhancements.

Read for 70 seconds in A PROMISED LAND by Barack Obama.  He recalls the first days of his transition from George W Bush to his term:  he mostly listened, and was surprised by W's statement that by Jan 20, W would have takend care of the economic crisis.  BO didn't believe him, but kept silent.

Read for 70 seconds in WORKING WITH ONENESS by Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee.  He says we must learn how to dissolve barriers in our lives, and to discern darkness from light, but all the while managing the amount & intensity of the light so we can deal with it well:  he quotes T.S.Elliot who said that humankind cannot bear too much light.  I.e., it has to be gradual.

Read for 70 seconds in THE RIGHTEOUS MIND by Jonathan Haidt.  He says Hume is probably right when it comes to deciding what causes our moral judgments:  emotion.  But Haidt wonders if that's always true, so his experiments will try to find out.

Read for 70 seconds in MAN'S SEARCH FOR MEANING by Viktor Frankl.  He describes more of the horros of Auschwitz, too horrible to repeat here.

Listened for 30 min to ULYSSES by James Joyce.

20220511 SLLLAVERS FOR WEDNESDAY - I ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SILENCE

Tried to silence brain for 70 seconds; mild success.

LLL - BHL

Live.  Laugh.  Love

Bless.  Heal.  Love

AFFIRMATIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
6. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
7. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
8. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
9. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
10. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

1. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
2. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
3. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
4. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
5. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
6. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
7. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
8. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
9. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
10. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

(I wish I could BELIEVE & KNOW this in my heart of hearts)

VISUALIZATION

193.6  Yesterday's weight

192.6  Today's weight

-1.0

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

Reasons I'm AGAIN motivated are

1. I already have everything I need.
2. George tells me that if a person can stand on one foot for X seconds/minutes, then s/he will likely live longer.
3. I feel better overall when I'm doing my exercises regularly

So, if I lose approx 0.5 pounds every day, I should be down to approx. 

190 by May 16th.

Here's how I've done during the last 24 hours:

1. Diet:  I had XXXXX meals yesterday: 1) my smoothie & coffee around 10-11am; and 2) frozen dinner + 2 slice buttered & jam toast + chips + X fig newton (covered with peanut butter & or jam) + pickle & cheese sandwich for dinner at around ALL DAY pm  UGHHH
2. I did not eat anything between these meals (approx 10-12 hours fasting)
3. I exercised (full routine - see below)
4. It's May 11th, and I weigh (199.0 - 6.4) 192.6

EXERCISE

Did my full base-72 routine for Wednesday, May 11, 2022:

1. ankle/wrist circles 72
2. toe/finger stretches 72
3. bicycle crunches 72
4. shoulder rolls 72
5. inversion table 1 1.5 min set
6. EPLEY MANEUVER 1Ram
7. flamingo R30, L30
8. ball/wall 15
9. angel/wall 15
10. counter stretches 15
11. squats 36
12. push-ups 36

READING, WRITING

Read for 70 seconds in SAPIENS by Yuval Noah Harari.  He says science and technology only got married for the long-term in the early 17th C (when Bacon published his manifesto "The New Instrument").  Today, we tend to think of science & technology as the same field.

Read for 70 seconds in A PROMISED LAND by Barack Obama.  He recalls after winning the election how he was hosted by W & Laura Bush, and the feelings of awe as he visited the Oval Office for the first time; he felt like it was "a lot" to take in on that first day.

Read for 70 seconds in WORKING WITH ONENESS by Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee.  He says that "magic" is a natural energy which facilitates us on our path; each person has his/her own path.  S/he is often not aware of it, and it's kept mostly hidden from him/her to avoid using it for personal gain.  But if s/he can manage it well, it will benefit him/her AND the other people, animals and plants nearby.

Read for 70 seconds in THE RIGHTEOUS MIND by Jonathan Haidt.  He says his interviewees (the brother/sister sex scenario) consistently held to their emotional morality, and could not easily (or at all) adapt to their reasonal morality.  In that, they were "HUMEan."

He'll next discuss Kohlberg's "Heinz dilemma" - where Heinz must decide if he'll steal a drug in order to save his wife's life.

Read for 70 seconds in MAN'S SEARCH FOR MEANING by Viktor Frankl.  He says he was one of the "luckier" prisoners in the camp, but still had to fork over ALL his possessions, including a manuscript that represented his life's work.  The prison guards/workers were amused with the idea that prisoners could keep ANYthing at all.  It became obvious to Frankl that he was not to be gassed - he was to be cleaned.

Listened for 30 min in ULYSSES by James Joyce.👌

20220509 SLLLAVERS FOR MONDAY - I ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SILENCE

Tried to silence my brain for 70 seconds; dismal failure....

LLL - HBL

Live.  Laugh.  Love.

Heal.  Bless.  Love.

AFFIRMATRIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
6. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
7. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
8. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
9. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
10. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

1. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
2. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
3. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
4. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
5. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
6. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
7. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
8. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
9. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
10. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds

VISUALIZATION

192.8  Today's weight

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

Reasons I'm AGAIN motivated are

1. I already have everything I need.
2. George tells me that if a person can stand on one foot for X seconds/minutes, then s/he will likely live longer.
3. I feel better overall when I'm doing my exercises regularly

So, if I lose approx 0.5 pounds every day, I should be down to approx. 

190 by May 16th.

Here's how I've done during the last 24 hours:

1. Diet:  I had XXXXX meals yesterday: 1) my smoothie & coffee around 10-11am; and 2) frozen dinner + 2 slice buttered & jam toast + chips + X fig newton (covered with peanut butter & or jam) + pickle & cheese sandwich for dinner at around ALL DAY pm  UGHHH
2. I did not eat anything between these meals (approx 10-12 hours fasting)
3. I exercised (full routine - see below)
4. It's May 9th, and I weigh (199.0 - 6.2) 192.8

EXERCISE

Did my full base-72 routine for Monday, May 9, 2022:

1. ankle/wrist circles 72
2. toe/finger stretches 72
3. bicycle crunches 72
4. shoulder rolls 72
5. inversion table 1 2-min set
6. EPLEY MANEUVER 1 Ram
7. ball/wall 15
8. angel/wall 15
9. counter stretrch 15
10. (forgot to do flamingo)
11. squats 36
12. push-ups 36

READING, WRITING

Read for 70 seconds in SAPIENS by Yuval Noah Harari.  He says Knowledge is Power; we generally do not understand the mathematics of nuclear physics.  But our leaders understand what a nuclear bomb can do.  Therefore, says Harari, knowledge is not merely "knowing the truth" - rather, it's knowing what theories can DO.

Read for 70 seconds in A PROMISED LAND by Barack Obama.  He remembers his first visit to the Oval Office as President (or EVER).... and he describes it.  I had not known that it was so small, and that the lights are never turned off (24/7).  I am saddened to think, today, that some day the lights might go off - if ever we should lose our democracy.

Read for 70 seconds in WORKING WITH ONENESS by Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee.  He says, in a new chapter, that MAGIC is still real.  There is "fake" magic of magicians/performers who merely do visual tricks to make us think they have some sort of power.  But Vaughan-Lee then introduces the idea that there is REAL, or TRUE magic, which gives everyone the power to alter the course of human physical/spiritual life.  For example, one might heal one's ache through the power of self-healing.  Or, one might cause a change in the community or the entire earth, very subtle, that could alter things for the better.  Vaughan-Lee also says there are both GOOD magic, and BAD magic.  The good kind is healing & humanitarian.  The bad kind is greed for wealth or power.

Read for 70 seconds in THE RIGHTEOUS MIND by Jonathan Haidt.  He says that he and his assistant Scott conducted interviews with subjects about taboo activities (incest, canibalism), and asked the subjects why they thought (or did not think) that an activity was inappropriate.  The results were "Humean" (i.e., followed Hume's model, "reason is the slave of the passions"), or IOW, the subjects' feelings determined their conclusions, and not their thinking.

Read for 70 seconds in MAN'S SEARCH FOR MEANING by Viktor Frankl.  He says his group of prisoners got the "finger" treatment - meaning that if a Capos pointed his finger to the right, you were not killed in the next few hours; and if he pointed it to the left, you were sent immediately to the crematorium and killed.

MY NOTE:  This is horrible stuff, and I'm not sure why I'm reading it right now.  I suppose it's mostly in order to educate myself about it; but mostly, I'm reading as a direct result of George's casual mention of Frankl's book, and how it had some significance for him.  I'm reading because I want to be conversant should it ever come up again with George or anyone else.

Listened for 25 min to ULYSSES by James Joyce.

20220505 SLLLAVERS FOR THURSDAY - I ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED, HE SAID SO EMPTILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SILENCE

Tried to silence brain - half-assed effort led to nothing for 70 seconds.

LLL - BHL

Live.  Laugh.  Love

Bless. Heal.  Love.

AFFIRMATIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
6. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
7. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
8. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
9. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
10. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.

ALso said aloud for 70 seconds.

1. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
2. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
3. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
4. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
5. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
6. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
7. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
8. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
9. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
10. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

VISUALIZATION

190.4  Today's weight

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

Reasons I'm AGAIN motivated are

1. I already have everything I need.
2. George tells me that if a person can stand on one foot for X seconds/minutes, then s/he will likely live longer.
3. I feel better overall when I'm doing my exercises regularly

So, if I lose approx 0.5 pounds every day, I should be down to approx. 

180 by May 17th.

Here's how I've done during the last 24 hours:

1. Diet:  I had two meals yesterday: 1) my smoothie & coffee around 10-11am; and 2) frozen dinner + 2 slice buttered & jam toast + chips + X fig newton (covered with peanut butter & or jam) + pickle & cheese sandwich for dinner at around ALL DAY pm
2. I did not eat anything between these meals (approx 10-12 hours fasting)
3. I exercised (full routine - see below)
4. It's May 5th, and I weigh (199.0 - 8.6) 190.4

GRRRRRRRRRR - I GAINED weight from the mac'n'cheese & the other stuff!!!!!   GRRRRRR!!!!!

EXERCISE

Did my full base-72 routine for Thursday, May 5, 2022:

1. ankle/wrist circles 72
2. toe/finger stretches 72
3. bicycle crunches 72
4. shoulder rolls 72
5. flamingo R40, L40
6. inversion table 1 2-min set
7. EPLEY MANEUVER 1Ram
8. ball/wall 12
9. angel/wall 12
10. counter stretch 12
11. squats 36
12. push-ups 36

READING, WRITING

Read for 70 seconds in SAPIENS by Yuval Noah Harari.  He says that over the last 500 years, STATISTICS have replaced THEOLOGY in advanced academia.  Even the fields of psychology, etc include an emphasis on statistics to help us evaluate the progress of humankind in various aspects of study & understanding.

Read for 70 seconds in A PROMISED LAND by Barack Obama.  He recalls election night, November 2007, when he was elected President.  He recalls being with his family & campaign staff, and how both surprised and excited they all were.  He worried that the actual events might be overshadowed by photos & videos of the night.

But what is glaringly missing is how BO was actually feeling about being President, and about being the first BLACK President.  Maybe he'll get to that.

Read for 70 seconds in WORKING WITH ONENESS by Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee.  He says there is no purpose to this journey (of life); "again and again, we are made and remade, thrown into the torrents that undo us, the silence that deepens us, the love that melts us."  Eventually, we realize that we ARE the ocean (or the earth).  And also eventually, love claims us for its own.

This seems a bit flowery of speech, but I do get the idea.  It's helpful to me right now to know that although I had a 2-day shipwreck (Tuesday & Wednesday), I'm still alive and swimming/sailing somehow.

Read for 70 seconds in THE RIGHTEOUS MIND by Jonathan Haidt.  He says he conducted 2 further studies:

1)  subjects were asked to sip apple juice which had been dipped into by a sanitized cockroach while they watched.  Only 23 % were willing to sip the juic.

2)  subjects were asked to sign away their soul to the person conducting the experiment, in exchange for $2.  Only 37 % were willing.  Some were atheist, but still wouldn't sign.

Haidt says there wasn't much dumbfounding in these studies; the people sometimes stated that they "just didn't want to do it."

Read for 70 seconds in MAN'S SEARCH FOR MEANING by Viktor Frankl.  He says upon arrival at the camp, they got off the train, and were "greeted" by a man in uniform who began to divide them into 2 groups - "left" and "right" by means of pointing left or right with a finger.

Listened for 25 min in ULYSSES by James Joyce.

20220503 SLLLAVERS FOR TUESDAY - I ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SILENCE

Mediocre effort to silence brain for 70 seconds; not successful.

LLL - BHL

Live.  Laugh.  Love

Bless.  Heal.  Love.

AFFIRMATIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
6. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
7. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
8. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
9. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
10. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

1. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
2. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
3. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
4. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
5. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
6. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
7. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
8. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
9. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
10. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

VISUALIZATION

189.0  Yesterday's weight

187.6  Today's weight

-1.4

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

Reasons I'm AGAIN motivated are

1. I already have everything I need.
2. George tells me that if a person can stand on one foot for X seconds/minutes, then s/he will likely live longer.
3. I feel better overall when I'm doing my exercises regularly

So, losing approx 0.5 pounds every day, I will be down to approx. 

180 by May 15th.

Here's how I've done during the last 24 hours:

1. Diet:  I had two meals yesterday: 1) my smoothie & coffee around 10-11am; and 2) Indian lamb/rice frozen dinner + chips + 1 fig newton (no peanut butter) for dinner at around 4:00 pm
2. I did not eat anything between these meals (approx 18 hours fasting)
3. I exercised (full routine - see below)
4. It's May 3rd, and I weigh (199.0 - 11.4 187.6

Amazingly, I lost 1.4 pounds in ONE DAY!  Scale inaccuracy?  Extra excrement?  Visualization?  Who knows?

EXERCISE

Did my full base-72 routine for Tuesday, May 3, 2022:

1. ankle/wrist circles 72
2. toe/finger stretches 72
3. bicycle crunches 72
4. shoulder rolls 72
5. inversion table 1 2-min set
6. EPLEY MANEUVER 1Ram
7. ball/wall 12
8. angel/wall 12
9. counter stretches 12
10. flamingo R35, L35
11. squats 36
12. push-ups 36

READING, WRITING

Read for 70 seconds in SAPIENS by Yuval Noah Harari.  He says Wilson & Websters predictions & probability studies became statistics science.  This led to demographic studies, which, in turn, was the basis for Darwin's development of the Theory of Evolution.  Prediction, probability, statistics, demographics and evolution all found their way into the modern sciences (physics, psychology, and all the rest); eventually, it also influenced quantum mechanics, etc.

Read for 70 seconds in A PROMISED LAND by Barack Obama.  He recalls election day (his first one) playing basketball w/friends, going to vote, hanging out..... etc.  He eventually got called to downtown Chicago, where they would watch the returns with the campaign.  He & family drove, and Malia asked "Daddy, did you win?"  "I think so," he said.  "Why do you ask?"

Read for 70 seconds in WORKING WITH ONENESS by Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee.  He describes this life journey as if we are sailing/rowing a boat through all kinds of waters:  some calm, some turbulant, always unknown, but also always filled with wonder and beauty.

Read for 70 seconds in THE RIGHTEOUS MIND by Jonathan Haidt.  He says at UVA, he & his assistant conducted 5 group experiments about morality.  The first wa Kohlberg's "Heinz Dilemma" which presupposed that Heinz must steal vital medicine.  The group would not succum to "dumbfoundness" Haidt thought he might see in some; but all sided with Heinz' stealing for medicine/life.

Read for 70 seconds in MAN'S SEARCH FOR MEANING by Viktor Frankl.  He says 1500 camp prisoners were crammed into a small space built for about only 200; no place to squat, let alone to lie down.  They had only 1 chunk of bread to last for 4 days.  They also traded whatever they could to the guards for schnapps - something to deaden their pain & suffering.

MY NOTE:  This is soooooo depressing.  I'm thinking about those poor souls having to deal with such horrors, and then I realize that evil Russian Putin is perpetrating much the same horror on the innocent people of Ukrain - TODAY!!

Listened for 25 minutes to ULYSSES by James Joyce.👌

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Well here I set, waiting again.  David's due to call anytime.  Maybe today's the day we get definite proof & money.....?  Likely not today, thought.  More likely in early June.

But he SAID he'd contact me after his meeting at 9am (10 his time).  So far, nothing.  (it's 10:35 am)

Waiting............................ (again)

Well, he called.  And, really nothing has changed.  DAMN!  I can hardly believe it's come to more waiting.

PPPPFFFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What do I do now??????????????

20220502 SLLLAVERS FOR MONDAY - I ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SILENCE

Tried to silence brain for 70 seconds; mild success.

LLL - BHL

Live.  Laugh.  Love.

Bless.  Heal.  Love.

AFFIRMATIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
6. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
7. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
8. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
9. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
10. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

1. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
2. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
3. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
4. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
5. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
6. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
7. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
8. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
9. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
10. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

VISUALIZATION

189.0  Today's weight

187.6  Yesterday's weight

+1.4  (YIKES!!!!)

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

Reasons I'm AGAIN motivated are

1. I already have everything I need.
2. George tells me that if a person can stand on one foot for X seconds/minutes, then s/he will likely live longer.
3. I feel better overall when I'm doing my exercises regularly

So, if I lose approx 0.5 pounds every day, I should be down to approx. 

180 by May 15th.

Here's how I've done during the last 24 hours:

1. Diet:  I had two meals yesterday: 1) my smoothie & coffee around 10-11am; and 2) mac'n'cheese frozen dinner + 1 slice dry toast + chips + 1 fig newton (covered with peanut butter) for dinner at around 5:00 pm
2. I did not eat anything between these meals (approx 16 hours fasting)
3. I exercised (full routine - see below)
4. It's May 2nd, and I weigh (199.0 - 10.0) 189.0

GRRRRRRRRRR - I GAINED weight from the mac'n'cheese & the other stuff!!!!!   GRRRRRR!!!!!

EXERCISE

Did my full base-72 routine for Monday, May 2, 2022:

1. ankle/wrist circles 72
2. toe/finger stretches 72
3. bicycle crunches 72
4. shoulder rolls 72
5. inversion table 1 2-min set
6. EPLEY MANEUVER 1Ram
7. ball/wall 12
8. angel/wall 12
9. counter stretch 12
10. flamingo R23, L35
11. squats 36
12. push-ups 36

READING, WRITING

Read for 70 seconds in SAPIENS by Yuval Noah Harari.  He says (in late 1700s) Webster and Wilson calculated longevities of ministers, and they were amazingly accurate.  IOW, they were able to predict the money accumulated in paid-ins, totalling x pounds, to within 1 pound.  It proved that 1) you could have a reasonable retirement as a Scotish clergyman, and 2 you could predict length of life and who will die when.  They took into account paying in, widows, widowers, orphans, 2nd marriages.

Read for 70 seconds in A PROMISED LAND by Barack Obama.  He recalls saying goodbye to his grandma (Toot) and going back to DC (campaign office?), where he was doing all he could.  His last speech was preceeded by a phone call saying Toot had passed.  He mentioned Toot in his speech, saying we all have "unknown heroes" who support us - and so was Toot for BO.

Election day, if you're the candidate, brings unusual silence in offices, and waiting.

Read for 70 seconds in WORKING WITH ONENESS by Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee.  He says freedom & love are evident when we live life which includes pain AND joy.  We can't experience true living until we "step outside the limited parameters of our defined life, and embrace the vaster totality of which we are a part."  IOW, he's saying the same thing again.  Repetition is warranted because I still don't understand it completely.

Read for 70 seconds in THE RIGHTEOUS MIND by Jonathan Haidt.  He says at UVA, he began his time there by doing research in "load v. judgment" processes.  He gave some a light load, and others a heavier one.  All groups produced the same results with regard to moral judgment.  IOW, moral judgment was independent of the circumstances, even if the subjects were time-constrained.

Read for 70 seconds in MAN'S SEARCH FOR MEANING by Viktor Frankl.  He says the transport were greeted by red-cheeked well fed other prisoners; Frankl and his immediate fellow prisoners thought that they might also become so well-treated ("delusion of reprieve" - a psychological term used for the moments just before execution, prisoners think they might be spared.)

Listened for 25 min in ULYSSES by James Joyce.👌

20220501 SLLLAVERS FOR SUNDAY - I ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SILENCE

Tried to silence my brain for 70 seconds; mild success, but foggy memory.

LLL

Live.  Laugh.  Love.

AFFIRMATIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
6. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
7. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
8. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
9. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
10. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

1. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
2. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
3. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
4. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
5. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
6. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
7. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
8. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
9. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
10. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.

Also said aloud for 70 seconds.

VISUALIZATION

187.8  Yesterday's weight

187.6  Today's weight

-0.2

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

Reasons I'm AGAIN motivated are

1. I already have everything I need.
2. George tells me that if a person can stand on one foot for X seconds/minutes, then s/he will likely live longer.
3. I feel better overall when I'm doing my exercises regularly

So, if I lose approx 0.5 pounds every day, I should be down to approx. 

180 by May 15th.

Here's how I've done during the last 24 hours:

1. Diet:  I had two meals yesterday: 1) my smoothie & coffee around 10-11am; and 2) steamed veggies dinner + 1 slice dry toast + chips + 1 fig newton (covered with peanut butter) for dinner at around 3:30 pm
2. I did not eat anything between these meals (approx 18 hours fasting)
3. I exercised (full routine - see below)
4. It's May 1st, and I weigh (199.0 - 11.4) 187.6

EXERCISE

Did my full base-72 routine for Sunday, May 1, 2022:

1. ankle/wrist circles 72
2. toe/finger stretches 72
3. bicycle crunches 72
4. shoulder rolls 72
5. inversion table 1 2-min set
6. EPLEY MANEUVER 1R1m
7. ball/wall 12
8. angel/wall 12
9. counter stretch 12
10. flamingo R30, L30
11. squats 36
12. push-ups 36

READING, WRITING

Read for 70 seconds in SAPIENS by Yuval Noah Harari.  He says people faced with problems did no longer hunt scriptures, or pray for answers.  The mathematitians and other thinking people of the 1700s began to look at human trends:

Webster & Wallace - (Scotland) the early indications of longevity predictions (among Scotish ministers)

Colin Maclaurin - (Scotland) prof of maths at U of Edinburgh, helped W & W collect data.

Jacob Bernoulli (Switzerland - 16xx - 1705) - the law of large numbers: you can accurately predict the outcome of a single event if you have a large database to draw from.

Edmond Halley - (Germany - early 1700s) published actuary tables.

CONCLUSION (reached by Webster & Wallace):

a 20-year old had 1:100 chance of dying in a given year, but

a 50-year old had 1:39 chance of dying in that same year.

Read for 70 seconds in A PROMISED LAND by Barack Obama.  He recalls his last minutes spent at his grandma (Toot)'s Hawaii apartment; he remembered his youth there - when he learned to play basketball, did errands for Toot, and heard her laugh at his complaint about his first paycheck being so small.  The press caught up with him on a 4-block walk, so he waved and turned to go back, but at that moment, he knew his Toot was gone.

MY NOTE:  Toot taught him about aging:  She said, "The one thing about getting old is, inside, you're the same person."  IMO, Toot was both right and wrong.  I AM the same person inside, and yet, I've changed beyond imagination over my own 71 3/4 years (so far).

It made me cry to think that he was blessed with such a caring & loving grandma who taught him things.  And also, to imagine spending his last moments with her remembering the childhood he'd had because of her.

Read for 70 seconds in WORKING WITH ONENESS by Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee.  He says laughter, like freedom, is bought at a price.  As far as I can tell, Vaughan-Lee is saying that the "price" we pay for laughter is to recognize and accept the bad with the good.  Image:  drink of life with both hands.  That will give us a more balanced understanding of what good and bad really mean, and that everything IS, in fact, love.

I'm recalling the lesson I learned from a guy I once knew:  I told him that I'd learned that everyting was either love or fear.  And he replied that ultimately, everything is love.

Read for 70 seconds in THE RIGHTEOUS MIND by Jonathan Haidt.  He says in the 1990s, psychologists were still focused on MORAL REASONING.

But if you look beyond developmental psychology, Wilson's synthesis was beginning to take hold.

[Wilson's synthesis (he sided with Hume):  ethics would soon be taken away from philosophers, and "biologized" (i.e., made to fit with the emerging science of human nature); IOW, there would be a linkage of philosophy, biology and evolution.]

The sysntesizers of the 1990s gave birth to a new concept:  EVOLUTIONARY PSYCHOLOGY.

At UVA, Haidt had already bought the Jeffersonian view:  MORAL EMOTIONS and MORAL REASONING were separate processes.  Moral emotions flow ONE WAY to Moral Judgment.  But Moral reasoning flows 2-ways between itself and Moral Judgment.

(Whew! - I re-read yesterday's passage, and detailed it out per above.  Not sure why, but at least for now, I am understanding Haidt's flow of ideas)

Read for 70 seconds in MAN'S SEARCH FOR MEANING by VIktor Frankl.  He accounts for the prisoner train finally stopping, and the prisoners being "greeted" by men in prison garb, shouting commands in all Euro languages.  He noted that they seemed well fed, and wondered if he himself might sometime share in their "blessing."

Listened for 25+ minutes in ULYSSES by James Joyce.👌