20180525 SAVERS

SILENCE

60 seconds of clearing thoughts
60 seconds of traditional prayer
60 seconds of focused breathing

AFFIRMATION

60 seconds of repeating aloud:

I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.

VISUALIZATION

1.  Weighing 185 pounds on July 10, 2018

(20 pounds in 8 weeks:   2.5 pounds per week)

2.  Riding a yacht in Greece with GG

3.  David calling with the money.

______ WELL______

David just called, but it wasn't a "money call" - it was an update, which while encouraging, was disappointing because it was, bottom line, more of the same.

OK.

EXERCISE

1.  in-bed routine:  wrists, ankles, fingers, toes, bicycle crunches
(probably no more today, since I'm struggling with a cold/allergy)

READING

Read a couple pages in SAPIENS.  "Sapiens" = animal; "Homo" = genus "man"
Also, there were other "homos" around:  Australopithicus, Neanderthal, etc.  My DNA analysis shows that I'm

20180524 SAVERS

SILENCE

60 seconds of emptying out my brain
Traditional prayer in honor of Mom
Focused breathing

(in spite of waking up with a cold)

AFFIRMATIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
6. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
7. I, Ken Taylor, 

Same affirmation aloud for 60 seconds:

(done)

VISUALIZATIONS:

1.  Visualizing me at 185 pounds on my birthday on July 10, 2018.

2.  Visualizing me and GG on a yacht in Cyprus.

3.  Visualizing me and David working together THIS YEAR!

EXERCISE:

Inspection and 150 + 50 genital squeezes

40 ankle & wrist circles

70 finger & toe stretches

30 bicycle crunches

40 shoulder rolls

24 squats

60 seconds of jumping jacks

(done)

(skipped pushups & inversion table spine stretch due to head congestion)

READING

From SAPIENS today, I re-learned about genera (genus) and species.    Human beings today are:  Homo (genus) Sapiens (species).  Lions today are Panthera (genus) Leo (species).

Pre-historic human beings were no more impactful on their environment than any other animals living at the time.

(done)

SCRIBING (WRITING)

Ecriture automatique

Wishing things could move forward now.  But writing - my ideas.

I think I am alive, a male, a man, a gay man, a single gay man, susceptible to illness and aging, sneezing.

(60 seconds is not that much, but it's something)

20180523 SAVERS

SILENCE

60 seconds of clearing my brain
Traditional prayer in honor of my mother who taught me to pray when I was a very young boy.
60 seconds of focused breathing


AFFIRMATION

60 seconds of typing this affirmation

1. I, Ken Taylor, communicate daily with all the important parts of the Universe.
2. I, Ken Taylor, communicate daily with all the important parts of the Universe.
3. I, Ken Taylor, communicate daily with all the important parts of the Universe.
4. I, Ken Taylor, communicate daily with all the important parts of the Universe.
5. I, Ken Taylor, communicate daily with all the important parts of the Universe.
6. I, Ken Taylor, communicate daily with all the import

Now repeating the same affirmation aloud for 60 seconds.

(done, done)

VISUALIZATIONS

1. How I will look when I've lost 20 pounds through diet and exercise.
2. How I will handle conducting group sessions at Hamilton Villa
3. How fun it will be to go sailing on a yacht with George on the Mediterranean Sea
4. How exciting it will be to get a money call from David today at 12:00 noon.
5. How happy I will be to finish reading SAPIENS.

EXERCISE

In bed:

• Inspection & 150 + 50 squeezing of genitals
• 40 wrist & ankle circles
• 70 finger & toe stretches
• 30 bicycle crunches

Later:

• 40 shoulder rolls
• 2 1-minute inversion table stretches
• 23 squats
• 23 pushups

READING

60 seconds of reading SAPIENS, by Yuval Harari

Here's what I learned:

What shaped the course of history?  3 REVOLUTIONS:

1. 70,000 years ago (68,000 B.C.):  Cognitive Revolution
2. 12,000 years ago (10,000 B.C.):  Agricultural Revolution
3. 500 years ago (1500 A.D.):  Scientific Revolution

(done)

SCRIBING (WRITING)

Ecriture automatique, encore une fois:

Here I sit wondering what might come out, but it's already coming out.  So that is the method of communication with myself and with whoever might read this some day.  I'm better prepared for the day, having done my SAVERS and I am trying to share same with my family, especially Joe and Chrissy.  

(done)

20180522 SAVERS

SILENCE

30 seconds silence
Traditional prayer
Focused breathing

AFFIRMATIONS
I.  MEDITATION
1.  I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the Universe.
2.  I, Ken Taylor, communicate daily with all the important parts of the Universe.
3.  I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
4.  I, Ken Taylor, physically heal myself.
5.  I, Ken Taylor, am physically healthy and well.
6.  I, Ken Taylor, attract wealth TODAY.
7.  I, Ken Taylor, manage my money well.
8.  I, Ken Taylor, am happy, peaceful and joyous.

II.  OTHERS
9.  I, Ken Taylor, heal my relationships with my family and friends.
10.  I, Ken Taylor, connect spiritually with my family and friends.
11.  I, Ken Taylor, am a loving, good and loyal father and grandfather.
12.  I, Ken Taylor, am a loving, good and loyal friend to my close friends.

III.  EXERCISE and DIET
13.  I, Ken Taylor, maintain my good health through daily exercise.
14.  I, Ken Taylor, maintain my good health through eating healthy foods.

IV.  SUMMARY
15.  I, Ken Taylor, improve my life through daily affirmations.

1. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
6. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
7. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part 

Now, repeating aloud the same affirmation for 60 seconds:

since I have texted my affirmations to my family, I decided to do the same for the following affirmation, in addition to the one above:

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving, good, and loyal father and grandfather.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving, good, and loyal father and grandfather.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving, good and loyal father and grandfather.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving, good and loyal father and grandfather.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving, good and loyal father and grandfather.
6. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving, good and loyal father and grandfather.
7. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving, good and loyal father 

Now repeating aloud the same affirmation for 60 seconds.

(done)

(done)

VISUALIZATIONS

Without looking at yesterday's visualizations, here's what I'm thinking today:

1. I'm visualizing what I'll look like when I've lost 20 pounds through exercise and good diet.
2. I'm visualizing me and George on the yacht in Greece.
3. I'm visualizing visiting Marie and Philippe in Paris.
4. I'm visualizing having a happy, productive and safe work day with Dr. Pruitt.
5. (now I looked at yesterday's affirmations, and added:)
6. I'm visualizing being ecstatic about getting a money phone call from David today!

EXERCISE

In bed:

• Inspection & 75 + 50 squeezing of genitals
• 40 wrist & ankle circles
• 70 finger & toe stretches
• 30 bicycle crunches

Later:

• 40 shoulder rolls
• 2 1-minute spine stretches
• 22 squats
• 22 pushups

READING

60 seconds of reading in SAPIENS

(done)

The book begins with the Big Bang

Physics:  the story of the fundamental features of our universe (matter, energy, time, space)

Chemistry:  the story of atoms & molecules and their interactions.

Biology: the story of organisms

History:  the story of the formation of more elaborate cultures of organisms

(done)

SCRIBEING (WRITING)

Here's what I'm grateful for:

1. I woke up again today
2. I'm reasonably able to perform SAVERS
3. I'm a father and a grandfather
4. I have close friends (David, George)
5. I have the means to fuel my body
6. I have a place to live.
7. I have some savings/investments

20180521 SAVERS

SILENCE

In bed:
1 minute of silence, tried to clear mind of all thoughts.
Traditional prayer for family & friends & society.
Breathing 5 points

(done)


AFFIRMATION

I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.

1. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
6. I, Ken Taylor, am an important part of the universe.
7. I, Ken 

This is how far I got in 60 seconds.

Now I'll repeat the affirmation aloud for another 60 seconds.

(done)

EXERCISE

In bed:
150 Genital inspection & squeeze
40 Wrist & ankle circles
70 Finger & toe clenches
30 Bicycle crunches

Standing:
40 Shoulder rolls
2 1-minute Inversion table back stretches

Later:
21 squats
21 pushups


VISUALIZATION

Seated, eyes closed:
1.  How I'll look when I have lost 20 pounds through regular exercise & good diet.
2.  How I'll be happy at the end of my work day with Dr. Pruitt
3.  How I'll be more of a loving father & grandfather to my family.
4.  How I'll enjoy my relationship & interactions with George.
5.  How I'll be ecstatic about getting a money phone call from David.

READING

2 pages in SAPIENS

I learned that the first empire in history was formed 4,250 years ago (i.e., 2250 B.C.), and it was called the Akkadian Empire of Sargon. (Stretch of land between the Easternmost part of the Mediterranean Sea and the Persian Gulf; present-dayLebanon, Syria, Iraq and Iran).

(done)

SCRIBING (WRITING)

Here's what I'm grateful for:
1.  Waking up again today - still alive.
2.  Opportunity to love & be loved.
3.  Relative health - ability to function as usual & improve.
4.  Means to keep myself healthy & happy (job, income, assets)
5.  Relative sanity - happiness, peace, joy of living.

(done)

20180520 THE 6 MINUTE MIRACLE MORNING - SAVERS

Imagine that the first six minutes of every morning begins like this…

Minute One… (Silence)

Imagine waking up in the morning, and instead of rushing carelessly into your hectic day—feeling stressed and overwhelmed—imagine that you instead spend the first minute sitting in purposeful Silence. You sit, very calm, very peaceful, and you breathe deeply, slowly. Maybe you say a prayer of gratitude to appreciate the moment, or pray for guidance on your journey. Maybe, you decide to try your first minute of meditation. As you sit in silence, you’re totally present in the now, in the moment. You calm your mind, relax your body, and allow all of your stress to melt away. You develop a deeper sense of peace, purpose, and direction…

Minute Two… (Affirmations)

You pull out your daily Affirmations—the ones that remind you of your unlimited potential and your most important priorities—and you read them out loud from top to bottom. As you focus on what’s most important to you, your level of internal motivation increases. Reading over the reminders of how capable you really are, gives you a feeling of confidence. Looking over what you’re committed to, what your purpose is, and what your goals are re-energizes you to take the actions necessary to live the life you truly want, deserve, and now know is possible for you…

Minute Three… (Visualization)

You close your eyes, or you look at your vision board, and you visualize. Your Visualization could include your goals, what it will look and feel like when you reach them. You visualize the day going perfectly, see yourself enjoying your work, smiling and laughing with your family, or your significant other, and easily accomplishing all that you intend to accomplish for that day. You see what it will look like, you feel what it will feel like, and you experience the joy of what you will create…

Minute Four… (Scribing)

Imagine, pull out your journal, and in your journal, you take a minute to write down what you’re grateful for, what you’re proud, and the results you’re committed to creating for that day. Doing so, you put yourself in an empowered, an inspired, and confident state of mind.

Minute Five… (Reading)

Then, you grab your self-help book and invest one miraculous minute reading a page or two. You learn a new idea, something that you can implement into your day. You discover something new that you can use to feel better—to be better.

Minute Six… (Exercise)

Finally, you stand up and you spend the last minute, doing jumping jacks for 60 seconds and getting your heart rate up and getting energized and waking yourself up and increasing your ability to be alert and to focus.

How would YOU feel if that’s the 6-minute you started your day with? How would the quality of your day—your life—improve?

20180520 THE 2ND "S" IN "SAVERS"

The 2nd S is "SCRIBE"

I'm here in the morning, rather than lamenting the lack of word from David re the David Deal (i.e., the MINE), I'm going to practice Automatic Writing for 1 minute:

The main thing I'd like to communicate is a sense of well being.  To myself and to my family.  But when I begin, I almost always wonder how it will be received, and whether it will really make a difference.  But since I'm not doing NOTHING, I feel like it's a good thing.

(1 minute is over)

Wow - that's a very short time to write.  But I'll keep doing it.

Tomorrow will be another MM day, and there will be another "2nd S" time - SCRIBE.

20180517 STILL NOTHING *SIGH*

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20180514 YESTERDAY DAVID SAID TOMORROW

Yeah, right.

Tschume died in Ghana; Michael says Thatcher doesn't know, and if he knew, there'd likely be unending delay.

But still..... why should we think that Michael's prediction of "Tuesday" (i.e., tomorrow) is accurate.  He's been wrong for several YEARS!!

I'm not holding my breath.

The prospect of staying with Dr. Pruitt longer than NOW.... is so very depressing.

But even more, it's so sad to think that David & I could have been working for YEARS together already.  And all we have to show for the "wait" is an increase in our ability to wait.

20180512 JOE'S BIRTHDAY; STILL NO DAVID DEAL; NOW REGGIE HAS DIED

In fact, it's even WORSE than we (David et al, and I) were thinking.

One of the rich guys (the one with billions), Reggie Tschume, who LIVED in Ghana, has died at age 61.  I'm sorry he died, but I'm also angry.

Now, the "David Deal" will likely be delayed indefinitely.

And that means that our dream (DT & me working together) is likely gone.

SOOOOOO very sad today.

But I'm with my 4 grandchildren, who are almost constantly fighting each other over video games and other sibling squabbles...... that I'm depressed.  Not to mention the sadness I'm feeling about Joe and Chrissy.

I'm trying to recall some funny stuff that I was going to "use" with the kids, but it just won't come back to me.  Damn brain!  Never seems to work to my advantage when I want it to.

AND....... it's SNOWING here.  In mid-MAY!!!!!!!  I can't believe it.  There's an unusual storm flowing through Utah right now - So the nice Spring weather they were having here is gone, and will be while I'm here.

I know - I know.  I'm looking for all the bad things.  But I'm banking on the idea that if I write them, I'll feel better.

So before I quit, here are some more.  (Then I'll switch to counting my blessings).

Diverticulitis.  Completed treatment, and within days, I had more pains in my colon.

George.  He's suffering in Cyprus.  I feel helpless to help him.

Financial.  I'm STILL trying to manage my retirement..... and for now, that means watching every dollar.  I really HATE this.

The valet at Dr. Pruitt's building scraped my car, but the management are saying they didn't. ($675)

Toenail, I having treated it for almost a year now, does not seem to be improving.

We have a complete IDIOT in the White House, who dominates the daily news like a bad cold that won't go away.

And now, today, I have a 40-year-old son.  Joe is hurting, and he's also depressed about his life.

So....... now the good stuff:

1. I'm alive & relatively healthy.  Body is slowing down, but still works well.
2. My son and DIL are both employed, making reasonably good money.
3. My 4 Utah grandchildren are healthy, going to school, enjoying most aspects of their lives (2 older boys play soccer, Ada is in a play).
4. California daughter & fam are also doing well.
5. I have George, a wonderful man "in my life" (he's "stuck" in Cyprus) who shows me great affection; and I have feelings of caring & longing & even love for him.
6. I'm employed (I like that I'm earning income & helping unfortunate people)
7. My car passed the smog test without the replacement of my 2 catalytic converters (approx. $1500)

Now, I'm trying to recall the funny stuff I was going to share with my grandkids.

I REMEMBERED!!!!!!!

I went on line and tried to prod my memory with funny stuff people say to their grandkids, etc.  I waded through a ton of famous people's one-liners, lists of things grandparents say or do, etc.....

I gave up, put my hands to my face and sighed.  And then.......

I REMEMBERED!!!!!!!!

Kath used to say these things when we were teenagers in Vienna:

"Watch out for that cliff" ---  "What cliiiiiiiiiifffffffffff"

"Watch out for that dip" ---- "What di-uh-ip?"

"Watch out for that string" ----- "What string - wing - wing - wing....."

I thought of them the other day, and said to myself "these would be fun to share with Joe & Chrissy's kids."

And then I forgot them.  Until......

I REMEMBERED!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life seems tough for me - I can't recall things all that readily.  I have to focus and spend a lot of time trying.  It usually doesn't work.

But today......

I REMEMBERED!!!!!!!!!!

Hopefully I can recall them later today when we're together.  (they're all sleeping now)

When I was thinking about these the other day, my mind drifted to some sayings that I shared in scouts in Vienna - mostly with Doug Kuhn:

"Would somebody please open the elevator door?"  (hands on face)

"Has anyone seen my toothbrush?  (or soupspoon)"  (fingers stretching neck skin)

"Madam, would you please move your umbrella?"  (finger pulling down on corner of eye, followed by finger pulling down corner of mouth, and "Thank you.")

These might be good for the kids on this trip.  If I can remember them.

*sigh*