20250131 SLLLAVERS FOR FRIDAY - NOT D$DAY YET, AND I, KEN TAYLOR, ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!

SILENCE

meh

LLL - BHL

Love.  Live.  Laugh.

Bless.  Heal.  Love.

AFFIRMATIONS 

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a kind and loving human being.
2. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a confident pianist.

VISUALIZATION

204 Today's weight.

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

EXERCISE

Did my PARTIAL base-80 routine for Friday, January 31, 2025:

1. ankle/wrist circles 10
2. toe/finger stretches 10
3. bicycle crunches
4. (MADE BED; PARTIAL PIANO time) (AFTER THIS "CATCH-UP" I DID MY FULL BASE-80 routine:
5. flamingo L60, R60
6. shoulder rolls 40
7. ball/wall 15
8. angel/wall 15
9. counter stretch 15
10. squats 40
11. push-ups 40

(yay)

READING

Read THE BOOK OF AWAKENING by Mark Nepo.  

For Jan 30:  Let your inner & outer complete each other, and re-learn this through interactions with others.  In this sense, we are all pilgrims and the journey is on-going.

For Jan 31:  Nepo discusses breathing.

My thought - Human cycles:

  

Living:             BE BORN - LIFE                           DIE - DEATH

Breathing:        INHALE - LIFE                             EXHALE - DEATH

Sleeping:          WAKE UP - LIFE                          FALL ASLEEP - DEATH

Learning:         KNOWLEDGE - LIFE                   IGNORANCE - DEATH

AND..... might there be similar transformations, more basic than Living, and more complex than Learning?

20250130 SLLLAVERS FOR THURSDAY - NOT D$DAY, AND I, KEN TAYLOR, ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!

SILENCE

Tried to silence brain for 80 seconds; not successful.

LLL - BHL

Live.  Love.  Laugh.

Bless.  Heal.  Love.

AFFIRMATIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a kind and loving human being.
2. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a confident pianist.

VISUALIZATION

203  Today's weight.

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

EXERCISE

Did my full base-80 routine for Thursday, January 30, 2025:

1. ankle/wrist circles 80
2. toe/finger stretches 80
3. bicycle crunches 80
4. (MADE BED; PIANO)
5. flamingo L60, R60
6. shoulder rolls 80
7. ball/wall 15
8. angel/wall 15
9. counter stretch 15
10. squats 40
11. push-ups 40

READING, WRITING

Read in THE BOOK OF AWAKENING by Mark Nepo - 2 installments for Jan 28, Jan 29, with GG.

 

20250126 SLLLAVERS FOR SUNDAY - NOT D$-DAY YET, AND I, KEN TAYLOR, ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!

Yesterday, I was SOOOOOO depressed!

1)  Trump, a wannabe dictator, is in the process of destroying our democracy.  I HIGHLY resent this, as it will punctuate my final years on the planet, and will DIScolor my happiness as I approach the end of my life.

2)  Since 2013 (i.e., almost 12 years), I have impatiently waited for David's mine to be sold, and to work with him and his group to distribute some of the proceeds to humanitarian causes.  David has anticipated the day, off and on, all this time.  He has even PAID me, in advance of the sale, anticipating that the mine would eventually sell, and I am part of his team (which includes his and Jeannie's adult children).  My depression is couched in asking myself, over and over, time and again..... "WHY does this project not proceed?????"

I have vacillated between "WHY.....???? " etc., and "I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need" -- to the point of dizzy frustration and even tears.

20250123 - SLLLAVERS FOR THURSDAY - NOT D$-DAY TODAY, AND I, KEN TAYLOR, ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!

 SILENCE - ok

LLL - BHL - ok

AFFIRMATIONS - no

VISUALIZATION

203 today; visualize less tomorrow

EXERCISE

Did my full base-80 routine for Thursday, January 23, 2025:

1. ankle/wrist circles 80
2. toe/finger stretches 80
3. bicycle crunches 80
4. (MADE BED; PIANO)
5. flamingo L60, R55 + 5
6. shoulder rolls 80
7. ball/wall 15
8. angel/wall 15
9. counter stretch 15
10. squats 40
11. push-ups 40 (just barely)

READING, WRITING - no

**********

Opened computer to record the above, and apparently there is a virus that looks like Microsoft; asked me to call a number, which I didn't do.

I rebooted; still there.

I restored original settings; still there.

I restarted; GONE!

I also dismissed the compromised passwords (there were 17) on my account; that seemed to work.

20250114 SLLLAVERS FOR TUESDAY - NOT D$-DAY, AND I, KEN TAYLOR, ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!

 CRAZY DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!

20250107 SLLLAVERS FOR TUESDAY - NOT D$-DAY, AND I, KEN TAYLOR, ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!

SILENCE

(no)

LLL - BHL

Love.  Live.  Laugh.

Bless.  Heal.  Love.

AFFIRMATIONS

(no) 

VISUALIZATION

207 Today's weight.

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

EXERCISE

(no, but I did stretch, and make my bed; no piano)

READ

Read today's message in THE BOOK OF AWAKENING by Mark Nepo.  The title, "We must take turns," was - FOR ME - misleading:  I thought it would talk about taking a right turn, or a left turn, or a U-turn.  But no...... as often happens, my very quick initial response to a title (or a few words), turns out to be in error.  In this case, "We must take turns" means, "We must alternate activities with a partner."

So..... pearl divers combine taking turns (I.e., alternating) so they can each have the experience of exploring for pearls, and also each have the experience of counting the time & controlling the line, to keep the diver safe.  Mutual trust.  Give and take.

************

Today is different.  I had a "come to Jesus" talk with Dr. Pruitt yesterday.  As he ambushed me right after I walked in the door yesterday with one of his "We have to talk" talks, my mood quickly changed from nearer elation in the aftermath of my Christmas/New Year trip to Utah, to a somber and silent mood, listening to his complaints about how I acted 3 weeks earlier during an argument.  Apparently, he'd been brooding over the fact that we'd had words; I, in contrast, had moved on almost completely.  I had to struggle to remember who said what.  I DO remember it, but I had simply put it to bed.

Well, his effort to clear things up actually BROUGHT things up for me - things I had let go of 3 weeks earlier, not giving them even a thought while I was gone.  But I listened, having promised to remain unoffended and silent while he spoke.  Eventually, he asked me for a reply.

My experience with him is that when I begin to speak, he doesn't listen for too long; he replies then and there; he says something like "I can't let that go," or "   "

While he lay in bed, and I stood at the foot of his bed, he recalled, I had raised my voice while making my case.  At this, he became fearful, and tried to get out of bed to go past me to the kitchen.  I remembered it differently:  I thought he was getting out of bed to escort me to the front door, since he kept yelling, "Please leave!"

Yesterday, I mentioned that I'd be having a hearing test on Wednesday, and that people who are hard of hearing sometimes talk louder than necessary; I said that could be why he thought I was "raising my voice" - at least initially.  Maybe if I get hearing aids, I won't do that so much.

(ran out of time)

20250106 SLLLAVERS FOR MONDAY - NOT D$-DAY, AND I, KEN TAYLOR, ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEEDE!!!!!!!

SILENCE

Tried for 6 seconds; no conscious success.

LLL - BHL

Love.  Laugh.  Live.

Bless.  Heal.  Love.

AFFIRMATIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a kind and loving human being. 
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a kind and loving human being.

Also said aloud for 10 seconds.

1. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
2. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.

Also said aloud for 10 seconds.

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a confident pianist.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a confident pianist.

Also said aloud for 10 seconds.

VISUALIZATION

208  Today's weight

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

EXERCISE

Did my "mini-base-10" routine for Monday, January 6, 2025:

1. ankle/wrist circles 10
2. toe/finger stretches 10
3. bicycle crunches 10
4. (MADE BED; PIANO)
5. flamingo L10, R10
6. shoulder rolls 20
7. ball/wall 8
8. angel/wall 7
9. counter stretch 7
10. squats 10
11. push-ups 10

READING, WRITING

Read today's message in THE BOOK OF AWAKENING.  I am a spoke in a wheel of which the hub is the common spirit we all come from, the spoke is MOI, and the Rim is community.  Meditation includes breathing & thinking about what makes me the same as others (e.g., I'm a male Taylor, like Dan, Bob, Tom and Jack), and about what makes me different from others (e.g., I'm a gay male Taylor, UNLIKE Dan, Bob, Tom or Jack)

Read for 15 min in SAPIENS by Yuval Noah Harari.

20250105 SLLLAVERS FOR SUNDAY - NOT D-DAY, AND I, KEN TAYLOR, ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!

SILENCE

This morning, I woke up later than usual; I did not feel motivated to follow my normal (?) routine, but decided to do the "10 rep" version:

Tried to silence my brain for 30 seconds; mild success.

LLL - BHL

Live.  Love.  Laugh.

Bless.  Heal.  Love.

AFFIRMATIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a kind and loving human being.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a kind and loving human being.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a kind and loving human being.

Also said aloud for XX seconds.

1. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
2. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
3. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.

Also said aloud for XX seconds.

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a confident pianist.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a confident pianist.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a confident pianist.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am a confident pianist.

Also said aloud for XX seconds.

VISUALIZATION

Today's weight 209

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

EXERCISE

Did my "base-10" routine for Sunday, January 5, 2025:

1. ankle/wrist circles 10
2. toe/finger stretches 10
3. bicycle crunches 10
4. (MADE BED; PIANO)
5. flamingo R10, L10
6. shoulder rolls 20
7. ball/wall 7
8. angel/wall 7
9. counter stretch 7
10. squats 10
11. push-ups 10

NOTE:  I felt a bit of soreness in my arms & legs, so I was glad to not be doing "base-80" today.

READING, WRITING

Read today's message in THE BOOK OF AWAKENING by Mark Nepo.  Later discussed it with GG.  Message puts forth the idea that whatever about me that other kids/people make fun of, was actually a GOOD thing, since it teaches me how to accept myself, and not to worry (so much) what others may think.

 

20250104 SLLLAVERS FOR SATURDAY - NOT D-DAY YET, AND I, KEN TAYLOR, ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!

NOTE:  Adding, under reading, "THE BOOK OF AWAKENING" by Mark Nepo, to meditate & read the message for each day.

SILENCE

Tried to silence my brain for 80 seconds; mild success.

LLL - BHL

Live.  Laugh.  Love.

Bless.  Heal.  Love.

AFFIRMATIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a kind and loving human being.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a kind and loving human being.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a kind and loving human being.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am a kind and loving human being.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am a kind and loving human being.

Also said aloud for 80 seconds.

1. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
2. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
3. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
4. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.
5. I, Ken Taylor, already have everything I need.

Also said aloud for 80 seconds.

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a confident pianist.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a confident pianist.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a confident pianist.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am a confident pianist.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am a confident pianist.

Also said aloud for 80 seconds.

VISUALIZATION

209  Today's weight

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

EXERCISE

Did my full base-80 routine for Saturday, January 4, 2025.

1. ankle/wrist circles 80
2. toe/finger stretches 80
3. bicycle crunches 80
4. (MADE BED; PIANO)
5. flamingo L60, R 40 + 20
6. shoulder rolls 80
7. ball/wall 15
8. angel/wall 15
9. counter stretch 15
10. squats 40
11. push-ups 40 

I was amazed to be able to do a full non-stop 40 push-ups!  I expected to NOT be able to do them, since I have not exercised for about 2 weeks.  I wonder if, as I get older, REST has become more important when balanced with regular repetitions.

READING, WRITING

Read & meditated for 80+ seconds in THE BOOK OF AWAKENING by Mark Nepo.  Message for today:

If there were any old dried up folded sponge with a sleeping fish inside, and you soak the sponge in the ocean, the fish will awaken and swim away.

The image congers up some parallels:  fish = heart; sponge = body with layers of film; ocean = Divinity

I also had this thought:  Waves washing the earth, non-stop, give us glimpses of our inner selves being washed repeatedly, allowing us to relearn what we need to know to live better lives.

Read for 80+ seconds in SAPIENS by Yuval Noah Harari.  He says

Read for 80+ seconds in A PROMISED LAND by Barack Obama.  He says

Read for 80+ seconds in THE RIGHTEOUS MIND by Jonathan Haidt.  He says

Read for 80+ seconds in MAN'S SEARCH FOR MEANING by Viktor Frankl.  He says

20250101 SLLLAVERS FOR WEDNESDAY, AND I, KEN TAYLOR, ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!

 What a great day to start the new year!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have 12 months before me.

I have 52 weeks before me.

I have 365 days before me.

I have Joe & family to love.

I have Lisa & family to love.

I have David, Jeannie, and George to love.

I'm in good health (body & mind).

I have the potential to do humanitarian work, starting this month.

I have my basic needs met (shelter, food, clothing)

Life is great; this business of living is so gratifying.

My positive Ken habits are getting stronger, and my negative Ken habits are getting weaker.

I'm learning how to love more.