DONE

It's the 3rd of a 4 day weekend, which happens every year at Thanksgiving time.  I recall the feelings I've had in prior years, when I've spent these four days mostly alone.  I like the "luxury" of having almost 4 whole days to do absolutely nothing.

It's not that I'm all that busy the rest of the year/week/my life..... but this feels good.

I should really be elated.  The last call I had from David regarding the mine deal is that the arrangements for the finally payments of the money are..... DONE.

David says this is a word his colleagues have never used before when describing the status of the deal.

David expects the first money to be wired to him on Monday or Tuesday, November 30/December 1.

We shall see.

I've taken the positive nature of this status seriously enough to formulate a plan for the appropriation of the money I get.  I still don't know how much it'll be, and David doesn't know either.

If it's enough to divvy it up, I plan to do so according to my spreadsheet called "WINDFALL."

So anyway, I like the DONE feeling.

I happen to be watching Princess Bride right now.  Others have quoted from the movie, but of course I don't recall the quotes or why they were important to them.  But soon after I turned it on, the cute blond lead replied to the princess (who said something about life being difficult - I really don't remember) with this statement:

"Life is full of pain.  Anyone who says differently is selling something."

I reasoned when I heard this that there must be SOMEone who enjoys life without pain, and is not really selling anything.  I think about two people who seem to be living in opposition to this movie quote:  My father, who enjoyed a lot of his life, and my ex-wife Teresa who, in the wake of our divorce, declared that she was still happy.

But viewed from another perspective, the message of religion (specifically Mormonism) is that we "are that we might have joy."  Are they under an illiusion?  Are we really under a life of pain, and are we deluding ourselves if we think we can be truly happpy?

I don't know.  But perhaps we can be inherently happy in spite of the pains of life, and without thanks to any religion.  Perhaps religion is faking the message - SELLING the message - that happiness can only be found within their message, and by living their recommended way of life.

Perhaps..... EVERYthing.  Dammit.

Well, I have to anticipate a possibly "NOT DONE" status on Monday/Tuesday.  I've been disappointed almost every week for the last 2 years.

And by the way..... YES, the money will help me in a lot of ways.

BUT HEAR THIS, READERS:  (lol - that's funny)

READ THIS, READERS:

I cannot WAIT to work with David.  Because what he has told me about the nature of the work we'll be doing is A GODSEND to me.  I have never liked corporate America.  Yes, I bought into it to varying degrees along the way.  But it was so REFRESHING (there's a better word, I'm sure) to hear about being on the GIVING end of transactions, rather than the SELLING end.

And I can do some good to others.  Help them realize their dreams.  Take some first steps.  Move with them.  I think this will be SO VERY GOOD for me as I wind down my career in this life.

I'm 65.  I might have done it earlier in some way.  But as I evaluate my life, I don't see any other solution.
I'm willing to work.
I'm excited about the nature of this work.
David believes in me.
I can do the work, earn the money, and enjoy the nature of the work.

Sigh.

I have to wait at least until Monday, maybe until Tuesday.

Stay tuned.