OVERWHELMED BY LIFE

Saturday afternoon,

No editing.

Watching "Begin Again" about a guy who owned a music label, became a drunk, and is now trying to begin again.

So life is overwhelming.

Everywhere I turn, I'm reminded about how I didn't make it.

Magna Cum Laude?  Dr. Pruitt says I deserve it.  But 38 years ago, I got it, and thought it was a mistake.  Now Dr. Pruitt sys "how do you know"  and I realize that I don't really know.

Maybe hd I really accepted it as "mine", I would be a more positive person now.

President Didier's 80th birthday party pics on FaceBook.  Made me realize that I "missed the boat" that Dee Pincock and Grayden Bridge are on.

But now...... I'm remembering that the LDS church is not true.

But then, who knows?  No one KNOWS.  They accept by faith, and say "I know" - makes no sense to me.

But then, what about the POSSIBILITY that I've missed the boat.  But then, maybe


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It was at that point in my writing that I somehow lost the post, but did not realize it had been saved as a "draft" - hence, it's here, in it's unedited form.  It's interesting how I tried, moments later, to reconstruct it.  I didn't try very hard.  AND, as I already know and live with, my memory is not good enough to recall what I wrote just minutes before.
OTOH, maybe I just didn't think it was all that important.
*sigh*