A RUN OF DREAMS, and STORIES TO TELL

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I've had some poignant dreams, and I don't know what to think about them, or what to think about how I've remembered them, or recorded them, or forgotten them.......
If what I call my "awake hours" are actually a dream, as David T and others claim, and if what I call my "asleep hours" are actually my reality, then what I call "dreaming" is reality.  And I'm recording all these thoughts while asleep.

BIG *sigh*

But whatever.  If I back up any farther, I'll fall into embryonicism - HA! - and there will be even less meaning to "this" than there now is.

But so what?  If this is a dream, then it's less important than my "asleep" hours are.  Or is it?

DOUBLE BIG *sigh*

There can be no definitive answer when you question everything, can there?  No.

Last night I attended a session at Abacus (an invited guest of Barrett Porter), and the speaker was Robert Dickman, who spoke about how to tell stories.  And with a partner, I told a story that I'd hardly ever thought about since it happened in December, 1966 (47 years ago).  And yet, as I concluded the story, I teared up about what had happened way back then.  Amazing to me, since it was all unplanned, and the "message" or "moral" of my story was something I had not EVER thought of before - not even once.

Perhaps I should adopt a new "habit" or "approach" to my life:  tell stories about what happened to me, and tell them well, and know that I can be candid about ALL my past, and not worry about who might think what.... etc.

Stories from
* Great Falls Road
* Mexico
* Rockville, MD
* Vienna
* Montreal
     - CHRISTMAS 1966

etc.

I have the thought that I could write stories here, about aspects of my life that my children haven't known about.  Similar to my mom revealing one day in Vienna that she'd finished her High School in Washington DC, not Richfield, UT, as we had always thought.  There are little stories, like CHRISTMAS 1966 that will likely be of interest to my children.
And now that I can be openly gay, I can write MUCH more freely!  YAY!

I hope I keep this momentum going.  So much of my life is punctuated by distractions (eating, sex, "have to's," the internet, sleepiness, etc) .... that I don't always complete projects like this.  Story of my life.

HAHA.  Maybe THAT should be the first Story I tell.

"Take 10 with PapaKen"
DAMMIT - I don't remember the other word(s) that rhyme with "PapaKen" - but it was a title for a story... stoopid brain!   Oh well........

End of post.

O & O

BAH