Watching CNN Heroes, I'm inspired to do something for those less fortunate. What, I'm not sure. But I sort of so it now, by working with Dr. Pruitt, and helping people who have little hope for anything good or better in their lives.... and our visits are often the thing that brings a smile to their faces - some of them, anyway.
I'm so very tired of waiting for David's call. When it comes, it will change my life. And I'll be able to do MUCH MORE to help those less fortunate. I won't be rich, but I could very well be "well off" and able to focus on the final phase of my professional career.
So when, day after day, I get no call, and every week or so, I get emails saying that it's "just around the corner," I get quite discouraged.
No, I'm not like those being helped on CNN Heros, and I'm not like Dr. Pruitt's patients. But I'm struggling with significant debt.
I'm also battling the diet/exercise cycle - i.e., I'm not doing regular exercises, and I'm deating less health-ily. Today I ate better, but still no exercise. I blame it on depression over the above issues. I've noticed regular knee pain in my left knee - seems to be worse in the mornings, or any time after a period of inactivity.
I wish I could go visit my friends in Northern California, Tennessee, DC, Scotland, France..... I'm VERY worried about no word from Eric Lefrandt.... He said last Spring that he was close to death, but then soon afterwards they moved to Scotland.... I heard from him a few times, and then..... nothing. I'm fearing the worst. If that's what's happened, I wish Arno would contact me.
So, on I go. Not exercising, not reading, listening to podcasts, working part-time, visiting the kids & grandkids when I'm needed/when I can afford it (a trip to SLC).... on and on.
I wonder how long my health will hold out for this kind of life.
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