In spite of David's assurances, I still feel like my dream died on Monday (3/19), when he called to say they were not going to wait for Michael to call with $$ news.
I had given up, but to hear it from David was emotionally devastating.
So, in his call, he told me I was still part of the "core" of the mine project. I constantly ask myself WHY? but at the same time, I'm totally grateful to him for including me.
He says it's David, Jeannie, Byron, and me. ??????? I haven't really done ANYthing to merit being a financial participant. So I offered to send some money (from my 401K) as appropriate. He said he'd let me know.
But by FAR, the death of my dream is the worst part of this time.
DEAD.
And I haven't ever had a dream to look forward to for my whole life. It came when David called me almost 4 years ago, with the mine project/GOCH investments people. And it involved me being head of the humanitarian arm of his new investment group.
So I allowed myself to HAVE the dream, and thanked the universe for letting me have a dream, at last.
And slowly, bit by bit, over 4 years, it has eroded, come back, eroded, come back..... until Monday, when it died.
DEAD.
It's still hard to accept.
Now, to be fair, David has not closed the door on Michael's plan, and Michael told him that the funds are still expected by Easter (HAH!)
Also, David has asked if I wanted to go with him to Nevada to do the Plan B: Sample project.
We'll see.
I feel awful, but also a bit relieved that I'm not 100% out in the cold.
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