6th POST - MORE WAITING TODAY, I SUPPOSE

Nevertheless, I am still waiting.

I'm PROACTIVELY waiting.

MORE waiting.  *sigh.*

On Monday, I heard from Oracle (about the possibility of being hired as an account rep for them), and from Timpson Medical (about the possibility of funding, and therefore beginning the work as a BDM for David T, and therefore being paid some sum of money, which would alleviate the financial crisis in which I am finding myself these days).

But no.

No word from Oracle (for whom I'm not likely to work anyway, since I was 100% honest in my resume, my completion of their "chart" depicting my experience & past earnings).

And no word from Timpson (for whom I AM likely to work, although I don't know as yet exactly what I'd be doing, nor how much money I'd be making).

It's frustrating to be waiting.  I AM tired by waiting, Mr. Kipling.

And depressed.

I sometimes think I should kick myself in the butt to "kickstart" my life again.  And other times, I feel so depressed that I think kickstarting myself would fail anyway.

All through this, I've had the thought that things will work out somehow.

TRIP TO FRANCE?  Marie is staying at Les Tertres for the month of September, and it would be a great time for me to go visit.  But I have not the "Monet" to buy "Degas" - etc.  So will the Universe provide that for me?  Will a way open up for me to go to France next month?

Maybe.  But probably not.

As I write, I'm impressed to think that no one will ever read all this, since it's depressing, rambling.  The themes I "choose" as I begin get diluted by other "threads."  So it's not something that could be beneficial, uplifting, rewarding or even interesting to other people, such that they'd read it regularly, or even once.

No comment(s).

*sigh*

Maybe today's the day I'll stop waiting.