20250107 SLLLAVERS FOR TUESDAY - NOT D$-DAY, AND I, KEN TAYLOR, ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!!

SILENCE

(no)

LLL - BHL

Love.  Live.  Laugh.

Bless.  Heal.  Love.

AFFIRMATIONS

(no) 

VISUALIZATION

207 Today's weight.

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

EXERCISE

(no, but I did stretch, and make my bed; no piano)

READ

Read today's message in THE BOOK OF AWAKENING by Mark Nepo.  The title, "We must take turns," was - FOR ME - misleading:  I thought it would talk about taking a right turn, or a left turn, or a U-turn.  But no...... as often happens, my very quick initial response to a title (or a few words), turns out to be in error.  In this case, "We must take turns" means, "We must alternate activities with a partner."

So..... pearl divers combine taking turns (I.e., alternating) so they can each have the experience of exploring for pearls, and also each have the experience of counting the time & controlling the line, to keep the diver safe.  Mutual trust.  Give and take.

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Today is different.  I had a "come to Jesus" talk with Dr. Pruitt yesterday.  As he ambushed me right after I walked in the door yesterday with one of his "We have to talk" talks, my mood quickly changed from nearer elation in the aftermath of my Christmas/New Year trip to Utah, to a somber and silent mood, listening to his complaints about how I acted 3 weeks earlier during an argument.  Apparently, he'd been brooding over the fact that we'd had words; I, in contrast, had moved on almost completely.  I had to struggle to remember who said what.  I DO remember it, but I had simply put it to bed.

Well, his effort to clear things up actually BROUGHT things up for me - things I had let go of 3 weeks earlier, not giving them even a thought while I was gone.  But I listened, having promised to remain unoffended and silent while he spoke.  Eventually, he asked me for a reply.

My experience with him is that when I begin to speak, he doesn't listen for too long; he replies then and there; he says something like "I can't let that go," or "   "

While he lay in bed, and I stood at the foot of his bed, he recalled, I had raised my voice while making my case.  At this, he became fearful, and tried to get out of bed to go past me to the kitchen.  I remembered it differently:  I thought he was getting out of bed to escort me to the front door, since he kept yelling, "Please leave!"

Yesterday, I mentioned that I'd be having a hearing test on Wednesday, and that people who are hard of hearing sometimes talk louder than necessary; I said that could be why he thought I was "raising my voice" - at least initially.  Maybe if I get hearing aids, I won't do that so much.

(ran out of time)