8th Post - SUNDAY MORNING

It's 6:24 AM.  There's no one in the place.

WILFRED is over (for now).  I've enjoyed watching the episodes, and I felt sorry that they were over (for now) this morning.

My laptop has been freezing (100% completely hard-reboot freezing) when I'm watching any videos.  The folks I talk to on line about computer problems (i.e., when I google the problem, and find an on-line answer, it's THOSE folks I "talk" to.  It actually means that I just try their solutionss, and most of the time, they work.)..... anyway, those folks gave me a list of possible solutions, which I'm now trying.

To test each step (i.e., to find out if that step were in fact the solution for my particular dilemma), I have to do the step, and then watch a bunch of videos.  If the videos freeze up my laptop, then the step tried is not the solution I need.

Needless to say, tedious to perform all these steps, the thought of which makes me *sigh* and feel frustrated and makes me ask, "Why me?  Is THIS the purpose of my life?"  It seems like a colossal distraction, and a major waste of time.

So, Sunday morning is generally a time of rest & emailing.  But today I feel messed up.

I can't believe I haven't yet showered since visiting TomKat theater on Friday night.  I'm depressed & I don't feel motivated to keep up the "maintenance" (i.e., showering, shaving, straightening room, etc.).  I DO eat, eliminate, and pay bills.  Minimum stuff.

And today, anyway, I'm blogging.

*sigh*

Later that evening.....

I want to make it a matter of record (as they often say), that I usually have a difficult time finding things, and it's almost always because I was too lazy to put the item "back," or in a place that makes sense to find it.
Usually, I just put it in a stack, or in plain sight, so that I can find it more readily - supposedly.  But it hardly EVER works out that way.

For example...... during my May Tripper trip around the country, I took my 2nd key to my car with me, and kept it in a zippered pocket inside my computer brief case.  I had my passport & some other papers in the same place, for safe keeping.

During my trip (5 weeks) I never needed the extra key.  When I was back home, I recall moving my passport & other stuff back to the place I keep them (uh-uh-uh.... I won't make THAT place a matter of this record!!) when I'm home.  And I recall moving the key.  But I don't recall where I put it.  "I'll have to make a focused search for the key," I thought.  But I never did.

Fast forward until THIS morning, when I for some reason was motivated to look for the key.  (The key acts as the way my roommate could move my car should he ever need to when I'm not home.)

My first impulse was to look in the computer brief case, even though I looked through it a couple times right after I got home, and didn't (obviously) find the key.  My nature is to look in what I think is the most likely place first.  And if I don't find it fairly soon, I begin to lament my lame brain/memory.

"Why?!" I will lament, "WHY can't I ever find things??  It's such a waste of time, and it makes me so mad!"

Well, THIS time was different.  I moved away from my usual position on the left side of my waterbed, and began to move toward my bedroom window where my computer briefcase was sitting.  "On the way" (which is only about 10 steps) I paused a second, and said to myself, "I wonder if I might have put the key in my CPAP bag."  I bent over, opened the bag, and pulled out the key!

Amazing feeling!  Amazing event!

And I didn't even have to pray.