20200829 SLLLAVERS for SATURDAY - POST-VERTIGO ONSET - DAY 85

SILENCE

Tried to silence brain for 70 seconds; mild success.

LLL

Live.  Love.  Laugh.

AFFIRMATIONS

1. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
2. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
3. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
4. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
5. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
6. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
7. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
8. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
9. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.
10. I, Ken Taylor, am a loving human being.

Also, said aloud for 70 seconds.

VISUALIZATION

192.8  Today's weight

195.2  Yesterday's weight

-2.4

I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

EXERCISE

Did my modified (due to shoulder cortisteroid shot 2 days ago) base-70 routine for Saturday, August 29, 2020:

1. ankle/wrist circles 70
2. toe/finger stretches 70
3. bicycle crunches 70 (7 with arms + 28 w/o arms + 35 w/o arms)
4. shoulder rolls (Very slowly) 42 (35 forward + 7 backward)
5. EPLEY MANOEUVRE 1xR (pm), 1XR (am)
6. squats 70

READING, WRITING

Read 70 seconds in SAPIENS by Yuval Noah Harari.  He describes "The Global Vision" as a slowly developing aspect of our planet.  He says that as early as 1000 BC, the concept of a global government was contemplated, but that it didn't accelerate until the last few hundred years, when we began to "tighten" the global reach.  After that process began, we were able to introduce Spanish cattle to Argentina, and Mexican chilies to Italy.

Agreed.

Today, you hear "the world is getting smaller and smaller," usually followed by an amazement about how quickly transportation has evolved, and technology has developed, making travel and communication so much faster; this will all lead to a globalization of economy, health care, and I'm guessing government, too.

Since we're fighting against another trump term in the White House, I speculate that "hidden" forces such as dictatorial Russia are behind the move to conquer and delete democracy, while Biden, et al, struggle to keep it alive.

Which would be better in a "shrinking, globalizing world:"  democracy, or dictatorship?

Read 70 seconds in YOU ARE A WRITER by Jeff Goins.  He says the third kind of platform is ARTISTS, who speak to us through paintings, music, food or poetry.  He lists his favorite artist as Jon Foreman of Switchfoot (a band).  Rather than write more about this, I'm going to listen to his music right now.

I listened to 2-3 of their songs, and soon realized that he is a person who believes in God, and yet his music has a "modern" rock feel:  guitars, blank verse, love songs mixed with being a human and lower than God.

My response is:  it touched something inside me, but I am resisting "jumping in" to experience all of his messages.  Why?  Because it assumes there IS, in fact, a god who might "rescue" me from the trials of my life.

Granted, my "trials" have not been all that challenging.  I have not lost a child.  I have lost siblings who died earlier than usual.  But I have coped with these losses fairly well.  I have also been able to cope with being a Mormon and gay and a father, all at once.  I "fixed things" in my life, and now I feel good about what I'm doing with regard to those aspects of my life.

But there could be trials ahead that will tax my soul, or make me either want to change direction, or actually change direction, and "move" to another "chapter."

But for now, I am still "waiting" for God to reveal himself to me, and to teach me the truth about who I am, and why I am here on the earth.  I'm nearing the end now, and maybe I've already run out of time to figure this out.  And also, maybe, I have an exciting life ahead of me in which I will be able to answer some or most or all of my as-yet unanswered questions.

Qui sait?

*sigh*

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