20161211 THE DAY BEFORE THE DAVID DEAL

Routine done.

Feeling OK - a little bit better than OK.

IS THIS, in fact, the "DAY BEFORE THE DAVID DEAL" comes true for me?

I don't know, but it sure does look like it is.

I JUST ABOUT told Lisa & Rodney all about it last night.  I told them there was something coming, but I wouldn't share details with them until next Tuesday.... because it might fall through, I said.

O MOI of little faith.

Well, it certainly does FEEL like this is "it."  After 2 1/2 years, David is now saying that the money (both the Singapore AND the Scotland GOCH funds) will begin tomorrow.

So, while I wait for tomorrow, I'm going to do laundry and eat breakfast and tidy up my bathroom & bedroom.

I honestly don't wish I had any more space, because they'd take even longer to "tidy up."  And I have other things I'd rather be doing.

O & O for now.

Later that evening..... or THIS evening.......

I talked to Joe & told him the latest news on David's Deal, so he could know where I was/am.

In the conversation, Joe pretty strongly pleaded for me to come to SLC for Christmas, if not this year, then next Christmas.

I feel so bad that I haven't been able to go to SLC and see him & his family more often.  I wonder how it'll be to look back on these last 2-3 years from the perspective that the DAVID DEAL CAME THROUGH.  I might regret having saved my money so much, and I might regret not going to see Joe et al more often.

But here I am, on the "eve" of the most welcome news in my life (at the moment).  And I'm hoping that it'll be good news tomorrow (or Tuesday)..... and that if it's NOT good news, at least I'll be able to hang on a bit more.

This is completely nerve-wracking, to say the least.

I'm eating and/or watching movies to pass the time, so I can not be dwelling on "what if" and "I hope it happens" and how I'll react.

The move I saw "BRIDEGROOM" was about a gay couple, one of whom, Tom Bridegrrom, died after they had been together for 6 years (he accidentally fell off a roof in Los Feliz, CA).

I wondered how "fate" (or God, or life) could have destroyed such a wonderful love relationship.  I wondered if Tom had been "too good" for this planet.  I wondered if he didn't need any more of this kind of existence... that he needed to move on to whatever lay ahead in his next life.

But I have no answers.  I know that I hang on dearly to my own life, and the lives of my family & friends.  I pray (such as I can do that) for the long-term lives of all my family & friends.  So I don't want to have mine (or theirs) ended prematurely, as Tom's was (in the movie).

I don't know if God is at work, or if it was just fate.  But it hurt me to see the film/doc about Tom Bridegroom's wonderful life, and tragic death.  So, I can't help but wonder (and that's likely all I'll ever do) why.  WHY?

Seems to me that Tom & his partner Shane could have lived their life together through old age, and loved kids, animals, friends..... and been an example of "IT CAN HAPPEN" - right?  Why didn't they have that blessing & opportunity?

Well, there are no answers.

So, it's still the "DAVID'S DEAL EVE" right now.  I'm glad it's here.  I HOPE it's here.

So, leaving aside the EMOTION I'm having..... here's what I think the likely scenario will be:

Monday AM - no call from David.
Monday PM - no call from David.
Monday EVE - no call from David.  But I'll call him.

The likely message will be:
GOCH funds are still "on the way" - just taking more time.
SINGAPORE funds have arrived in Michael's account, but will not be available to DT for a few more days, and they're only $10K, of which DT will likely say he needs all.

I will still be left with the dilemma: should I fly or drive to SLC, and when?