20210624 SLLLAVERS FOR THURSDAY - PROLLY TAKING ANOTHER DAY OFF - D-DAY? NOT FOR ONE SECOND DO I BELIEVE IT!!!!!!

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VISUALIZATION

192.2  Today's weight

192.2  Yesterday's weight

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I visualize weighing less tomorrow.

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SLEEP CHALLENGES

I'm no longer using a CPAP machine, since I'm trying to "train" myself to sleep with my mouth closed.  I have a "slightly deviated septum" which makes it hard to breathe through my nose.  That, and my tendency to be "stuffed up" a lot (due to allergies and/or a cold) make it really difficult to keep my mouth closed.

SO.  When I saw the Somnifix ad for mouth tape on FaceBook, I was excited to try it.  And I bought the strips (about $1 per strip, but I can re-use them for approximately 4 days).  Some nights they work "fine."

But last night, I had a terrible time with them.  I am trying to find out why, when the tape is in place, I can breathe through my nose just fine.  And why, at other times (with the tape in place), I feel like I can't get enough oxygen to breathe normally through my nose.... so I have to "gasp" for air through my mouth.

Right now, the tape is in place, my lips are closed, and I'm breathing normally through my nose.

But I'm awake.

If I were to attempt to sleep right now, I'm wondering if a)  I'd "snore" (or if my body would attempt to snore), and b) would I not be able to sleep.

This "cycle" has gone on all through last night.  So I didn't sleep well.  But I'm awake, and calmly breathing, and I don't feel like I need to sleep more - at least not for now.

HELP!

On a related note.....

Why couldn't I have just been a normal breather?  Would have made my social life MUCH better.

Oh well, nothing is really working out for me, even at this late age (almost 71).

I'm supposedly this wonderful grandparent, but I don't think my grandkids like me since I yell at them, telling them not to yell at each other.  I try not to, but it just comes out sometimes.  And that's kind of what they remember.

(Rambling)

And it's MY life that is being held up by "NO MOVEMENT" with regartd to David's Deal (Akonda Mine).

I am CONSTANTLY asking myself why NOTHING is happening.  He's told me not long ago that the sale will go through by "Summer Solstice" - and thtat has come and gone.  The interested party has apparently had another delay.  The told David/Michael that it would be a CASH DEAL - FOUR MONTHS AGO!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT THE HECK????????????

This is the same or similar story David told me about GOCH, and about other possible investors.  WHAT IS GOING ON???????????

I'm again led to think that I've hitched my wagon to a heavy rock, and not to a star.

Yes, I hope I'm wrong.  BUT GOOD GRIEF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's MY life.  Why is it STILL not working out in a meaningful way???  Am I that bad at making decisions?

I don't know.  I'm so depressed about my life.

I'm close to giving up on tryhing to make anything work.

AT LEAST.... I didn't gain any weight during the last 24 hours.

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