20161117 WRITINGS FOR TODAY

It's early morning, and I agreed to work at 10 am today, so I'm getting an early start.
I already did my meditation & exercise routines.

But now, to possibly change my mood (which is quite negative right now), I'll do my affirmations.

OK, they're done.  I'm aware that my mind wanders a lot when I'm typing the 15 affirmations (10 times each).  But I am forcing myself to "hold the needle down" and keep trying to refocus on the content and how it can change my life.

David's Deal has still not come in.  I don't know:

1.  How much longer I can keep waiting for it.

and

2.  How much longer I can stay at HDA (working for Dr. Pruitt).

My life left is getting shorter by the day.  I don't want it to end (if that's really what happens when I die), not having had a dream & lived it.

My dream is to work with David & do philanthropic work, giving rather than earning (although I WILL be earning my salary, of course).

I wonder if it will happen today.  I hope it will happen today.  I pray it will happen today.  LET IT HAPPEN TODAY!

Please.  I need to start living my dream..... TODAY!

Please.


OK - ready to note anything.

Later, same day:

Well, today was a bit better, but not a lot.  My affirmations did not stay with me.  I had a reasonable time with Dr. Pruitt - we submitted the corrected billings - FINALLY - and he said if there were any further go-backs (i.e., rejections of the billings as submitted), I would be shot.

I think he means I'dbe fired.  But who knows WHAT he means.  He's a difficult man, to put it mildly.

So now...... I'm in San Clemente to help with Lisa & Rodney's 2 kids.  Lisa is in Utah with the baby.  Rodney goes to work tomorrow, and I stay home with Eli, and monitor the Kindergarten coming & going of Lyla.

So, here I am.  Nothing really important to record.

Bah.