Up early again today, and quite glad I've already done my physical routine. I even stretched my back by hanging my upper torso over the edge of the bed.
It's still dark outside. Ethan is apparently asleep in the bed next to mine. He is breathing audibly, regularly, not snoring.
Well, on to my affirmations for today.
OK, affirmations are done for today (yay!), and I repeated each one 10 times silently, since Ethan is still asleep in the next bed.
The sun is coming up in St. George. Today we're going to have a photographer take family pics. I'm going to pay the photographer. Hope he/she is good at it. We'll be in the rock country at 4-5 pm, and so we'll have to deal with tired kids, and cooler weather, and getting the photo right.
I'm a bit worried about my "letting lose on the kids." My older brother Bob was living with his daughter and her kids, when he acted out by hitting one of the kids. My niece asked him to move away, and his life went sort of downhill since then. My temperament is quite a bit like his, I think.
OTOH, I do affirmations every day, PLEADING with myself to be loving and healing with my kids and grandkids. I hope I can really make it different. I would be devastated if I were to do something like Bob did, and then be "ostracized" from either family.
Another phenomenon - Teresa seems to be "following me around" and getting a bit closer. Just a bit. She'd never come to a sofa where I'm sitting and sit beside me - at least not for years. And this trip, she's done that several times. It's a weird feeling.
Dr. Pruitt emailed to give my my schedule, and that's a good sign for our relationship & future working together. I hope we can get all things done correctly from now on.
AND DAMMIT, DAVID! I've waited long enough for you to "rescue me" from my current life. Haven't I??? Let's have the call this coming week. PLEASE!!!!!!
We shall see.
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