20161121 WRITINGS FOR TODAY

I'm timing my time for doing affirmations, beginning at 7:21

It took about 41 minutes to do my affirmations today, including reading each one aloud 10 times.

That will help when planning my days.

I had a wonderful chat with Joe this morning - we seem to fill up the time he has for his commute, and then some, every time we talk.

I'm worried about his temper with his kids.  But he is at least aware of it.

Before I call Teresa back to discuss the plans for our Thanksgiving trip to St. George...... I want to think it through, basing my conclusion on the wants and needs of everyone.

Ken:
I don't want to be gone an extra night, nor to spend the extra money for a motel in Las Vegas.
There would be more chance of an accident while driving at night after a full day of work.
If Teresa drives, I won't sleep.
I dislike being "railroaded" into doing what she & Lisa want.
If we leave at 6am, traffic will be light (RC - LV 6-10 am, lunch, LV - SG:  12-2 pm)

Teresa:
She wants to do what Lisa wants - drive while kids are sleeping.

Lisa:
She wants to drive while the kids are sleeping.

Rodney:
He wants to keep the peace in the family.
He doesn't want to drive all night after working all day.

I'll discuss with TT when she calls.

Meanwhile,

Last night I kept waking up, and kept debating whether to keep my CPAP mask on or not.  I wore it from about 10 pm to 3 am, and I was tempted to take it off.  But I kept it on, not being able to breathe all that well, and not being able to fall back to sleep.  So.... I listened to a podcast, and that eventually did put me to sleep.  But I woke again around 4am, and I took off the mask.

It had rained a lot during the night.  The temp is a lot lower now, so it's not as nice to keep the window open all night.  But I did leave it open a bit.

I suppose I'm trying to move toward wearing the CPAP mask all night, every night.  That would give me better rest.  But I'm also somewhat afraid of not being able to sleep WITHOUT it.... in case I don't have it sometime, or in case there is no electricity sometime.

Probably needless worry.

Re. David's Deal.
Back in early November, David said we could likely watch for payments on the 7th, the 14th, and the 21st.
Well, true to form, it's now PAST the expected money dates (except for today - maybe today will be different..... HA!), and there's no call, which means there's no money.

I had mentioned on our last call that it was quite frustrating to me to have the expected money dates (the "EMDs") come and go, and I don't get any call, text or email.  I said it was quite frustrating to be working for Dr. Pruitt, expecting a call on a given EMD, and not getting it, even if it's just to chat.  The issues I'm having with Dr. Pruitt at the moment are so negative and difficult to deal with, I would welcome a call now and then.

But no.  No call from David at any time all week long.  I half-expected he'd just call to say "Hang in there" or something.  But NOTHING.

This is why I'm so very, VERY depressed.

Joe's interest in talking to me keeps me going.  Lisa's requests for help with her family life keep me going.  But that's about it.

I don't want to focus on what's wrong so much..... but c'est une verite qui me regarde droit dans les yeux.

Meanwhile, the T-shirts will have to wait.  And the donations I want to make.  And the trips to see my close family & friends.  And paying off my CC debt.  And anything new (e.g., new clothes to replace my faded and worn clothes).  And all the other stuff I have listed on my "windfall list."