20161130 WRITINGS FOR TODAY

OK, so it's 9pm, and I just completed my 15 Affirmations for today.  I would have done it this morning, but I had left this laptop at Dr. Pruitt's house, and so could not do them until this evening.

But this did not stop me from doing the other first parts of my Routine:

Prayer/meditation
Breathing
Testicular exam
Kegel exercise
Physical exercises
Body Stretch

I feel better, in general.
But yesterday at Ralph's I saw & bought egg nog, chips, dip, and a 1/2 lemon cake.  So naturally I'm having some of each every night, except the egg nog.

All these are fattening.  Will try to minimize these tomorrow.

With my forgetting to take my laptop home, I also left my phone charger at Dr. P's place.  So, by morning, my phone was dead.

I've always said that David will likely call with "actual money news" when my phone's dead or off, or when I'm in the middle of something focused, etc, etc.

Well, that sort of happened this morning.  With it's dying "breaths" almost gone, I noted that David had replied to my TDay text greeting with a message indicating that he now had some "very interesting information."

I responded with a sigh, AND with a bit of excitement.  I resolved to call him back while driving to work today.  Amazingly, he was available to talk right then!  (He's usually strapped for time due to family obligations, etc.)

His message was quite encouraging.  He heard from Michael (1 of the 2) that the REASON - finally, someone saying there's a REASON - for all the many delays lies with the Bank of Scotland, who are dealing with extremely difficult times due to the aftermath of the 2008 recession, and a poor economy in Scotland for the past 2 years.  So... their CEOs & other VIPs at the bank (where Mr. Thatcher is an employee) have filibustered the transfer of the $15 Billion GOCH funding, because it gives them an extra % point (or something along that line) in their ratings.  If the money is gone, they'll be more vulnerable.

FINALLY - my thoughts have been "vindicated."  I've felt for most of the 2+ years I've known about this GOCH money, that SOMEONE, SOMEWHERE was benefiting from retaining the money.

And that's apparently the case in this case.

I joked with David that the Scots were being Scotch.  And he replied that they deserved a "Scotch blessing" - which I agreed with, but that it should be an AMERICAN blessing, rather.  And they likely won't enjoy it.

David further said that the Bank of ENGLAND "trumps" the Bank of Scotland, and that the Bank of England has already over-ridden the Scots, and demanded that they allow the GOCH transfers to go through.

This, he says, will begin the day after tomorrow.

I said, "I really hope it happens this time."  to which he replied "That's exactly what I said today!"

Well, don't we all hope?  I'm feeling pretty down about my career & my finances these days (weeks, months, years).

All I can do it look back and regret my errors in judgment, in almost every situation.  While I do have some skills I can pinpoint, they don't seem to have carried me very far.

But now (or when David first tantalized me with this opportunity about 2 1/2 years ago), I've somehow acquired new hope for my life.

I'd be working with someone I know & trust & love.
I'd be GIVING out money to people (impact giving), rather than trying to convince people to give ME their money (sales).
I'd be able to use my languages.
I'd be able to get & stay out of debt.  I'd be able to keep my 501K & my rental property.
I'd be able to help Joe & Chrissy.
I'd be able to set up REAL fund accounts for my grandchildren.
I'd be able to make a larger donation to The Lavender Effect.
I'd be able to make donations to podcasts.
I'd be able to make donations to NPR, etc.
I'd be able to visit Eric in Scotland.
I'd be able to visit Marie in Brittany.
I'd be able to visit Australia.
I'd be able to visit Peggy.
I'd be able to visit Patricia.
I'd be able to visit many other friends.
I'd be able to get my teeth whitened.


But now, I'm not going to think about it again until Friday.  It might never happen, or might not happen on Friday.

So on with my life as it is.

I'll cash in some of my 401k to pay off my cc debt, and include some money for taxes & penalties.  And then I'll attempt to refi my house (based on Dr. P's job).

And if I can make it work, I'll gradually build up some savings & keep working hard.  Might even look for an additional way to increase my income.

And I'll slow down, over the next 10-20 years, and get ready to die.

Depressing, I know.  But it's where I am.  Reality.  YUK!