20161128 WRITINGS FOR TODAY

Off we go again.
I was awakened by Joe's "commute call" (his drive from American Fork to SLC/work), after having slept through the night (yay), i.e., 11pm to 5:30 AM.
He's doing so much better with his new job and the family; and we're all coming down off the high from Thanksgiving in St. George.
I got up after Joe's call, and I did my meditation/workout routine.  I even did the back stretches on my inversion table.
So now, it's daily affirmations.

O&O for now.

At least for today..... I've maintained control & accomplished my goals, as simple and short as they are.  Feels good.  Most of my life, I have not had this feeling.  I suppose that some people have it every day.

But I'm glad & rejoicing in today, the day that I know I have.  I don't know if God gave it to me, or if it just happened.  There seem to be a rhyme & a reason to it all.  And yet, there is also a spontaneity to it, which in part belies the traditional religious explanations.

Well, let's not get too carried away.  I'm not "rejoicing" so much as having a happy, solid confidence that I'm doing something right.

During my affirmations, my mind often wanders to seemingly random past experiences.  Or to my frequent lamentation that I've pretty well screwed up everything I've undertaken - at least career-wise.

So, the affirmations are very important, because they help me restore some measure of value to my life.  Maybe I'm not such a fuckup after all.  Maybe there IS some productive value to what I've done.

Maybe my value will be yet revealed.  I'm just now getting used to allowing "the world" (i.e., possible readers of my blog posts) to know the real me.  And in the process, I suppose, I'm getting to know myself better, too.

I've been down similar paths before.  But this time, I'm walking along with a bit more confidence that things WILL actually improve.

At least for today.

Later.....

I made it through most of the day without undue "fuckupping."  I even related well in most ways with Dr. P.

I also did not go shopping.... I can get by with what I have "in stock."

Feeling slightly better physically.

Except for headaches.  They seem to be more frequent lately.